Birthing Light Through Your Body and Physical Presence, Stewardship- Manifesting Skills I - J2

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Alaya’s notes
4pm

If you are having difficulty remembering or wrapping your head around your experience in order to post, you aren’t alone. I’m having that a bit with this album so far. What I do when this happens, is if I can remember one sense, one feeling or one image, anything at all, I sit down and start typing. Pretty soon more recollections begin to emerge from my subconscious. I find this tremendously valuable for my own integration process and encourage you to try it.

There is just so much in this journey, again, and at the end the energies just kept going and I drifted, but not before a profound experience I’ll tell you about in a bit.

What I do remember is energy and words about the heart, the head, the hands - heart connection. I remember playing with a seed of light in my hands, something I was creating from light, and then planting it. And noticing whether I could let it go, noticing whether it needed to be connected to me, what it needed from me, how soon it would be OK for others to interact with it.

And there was a discussion about birth, gestation, and the ways we remain connected mother and child after birth and during early developmental phases.

What happened for me at the end, was that I experienced my state of consciousness, emotions, physical feeling of my birth. I noticed what it felt like that my mom had had an epidural and wasn’t helping, the panic of being stuck so I couldn’t do it on my own, and then the feeling of the person who did help me was so disconnected and hurt me, pulled me out with forceps. Many of us have done rebirthing kinds of experiences, and we do them for good reason. I’ve done them before, but this was a new layer, an important layer, and it completely surprised me.

And so in this pure light of my own Source, and with conscious awareness of myself as the baby and myself as the witness, I lovingly helped and birthed myself with a lot of support, many hands of light helping, and letting my baby-self know that it was over, this trauma, that the person who did that thought he was helping me, but that it didn’t have to happen anymore, and that there was so much love and support.

I’ve had chronic neck pain and many head injuries. I’ve read that forcepted babies have lots of head injuries. They did a study and it’s what they found.

As this rebirthing was happening and after, I felt my spine shift, my body resettle, relax, and the longtime pain in my occipital area and neck melted.

This is not what I expected. And it makes such perfect sense in a course on manifesting to re-do that first birthing into form so that the template of how to birth light into form is mine, pure, clear and free, and not an imprint of someone else’s disconnection or a recurring experience of pain and trauma.

I’ll be curious what this opens up, and imagine I will need to take a little time to integrate before listening to the next one.